Don't you just hate it, when you give him so many hints, he still doesn't catch them on?

I ws just reading khaleeda's blog i found it really amazimg.
some grammatic errors, but amazing.
i found 2 i thought i really got to connect with.
she totally worked the post beautifully.
(the sentences bolded are the ones i love)

first!

Someone,

I'm in love with you since form 1, "the first sight"... In my heart, I knew there's something about this guy... Every night, I think of you... I studied about you, and getting to know you better, I think I knew almost everything about you... I don't know that I'd get so serious in you... I care so much about you, I love you, more than I love myself. One thought of you is all it takes to leave my whole world behind. One day,I can't take it anymore but to tell my friends the truth, and they're really a secret keeper :) thanks.

There's so much thing I knew about you, from head to toe, there's a lot of thing, I couldn't explain in here... God knows, how much I miss your smile, the smile that absolutely not for me, just to other guys or girls, never me. Actually, I can't look through your eyes just because I'm afraid it'll look obvious that I'm total in love with you, I hang my eyes just around those hair, hands, neck... I wish I could stare at you for a long long time without you realize it even with your open eyes... But there's a picture of you I kept, in my closet, I hide it 'cause I'm dead if anyone in my family knew, oh I wish I have a bigger size of it, made of paint, and I draw it myself... but if I want to draw your face, you have to be in front of me, right?....and if I get to finish the portrait of you, I'll hang in on the wall, and face it everyday. How heavenly... But don't you think it'll be better if I have you, your body and soul? so that I could play with your hair, hug and kiss you anytime I want to... I don't need pillow to does all the works anymore...

I don't need you to love, its so unnessary... I just want you to let me love you, and don't hate me, please... I don't mind if you have a girlfriends or whatever, I'm not easy to get jealous... well, sometime yes. But I'll forget it as soon as I think of one day maybe you'd like me back, would you?...Hmm, Maybe not, I'm just a silly, ugly and stupid girl, other side of the world to you...

I wish that we could talk someday, looking at the past, I think I just talked to you for really short and few times only... I want it to be a girl-to-guy chat, that include rumors, flirts and all... Oh, did I tell you, I remembered every words that you said to me? Yes, I do :) I write it in my diary, over and over again, because it seems like, you just talked to me yesterday... I still remembered what you said, I heard it clearly in my friends slow laughter, 'cause when I'm with you, there's nobody around. Only you and me.

And lastly, this question always came out of my head, Why am I so afraid? Where's my guts to tell you that I love you? Can't I face the rejection? What if I tell you, and you reject me and you'll think im your enemy? But if it become vice versa? I am daring in doing stupid thing, but I'm not dare at telling you the truth... 'cause someone, to lose you is my biggest fear. (even though, I never really have you)

uncountable loves,
khaleeda
miss you lots

second!

Isn't it funny that some hopeless girls profile written about um, a guy? Yet, he never knows that every words are about him, truly from a heart of a girl. Don't you just hate it, when you give him so many hints, he still doesn't catch them on?

Well, I've love this guy for so long now, about three years. But I know he doesn't like me, in fact, he hates me. Although, I know that, but I'm just way too far of falling into him.

At first I thought he just a stoopid crush. But I realized that I'm into him as I want him so much. Well, of course I don't want to feel this way, but I can't help it. I always think about him and wondering whether he's thinking about me too? Every time I see him, my lips starts to shake and my nervousness become greater, and my body suddenly gets so weak. :) And guess what? Even if I had a worse day ever, his smile could just cure it all, I could just forget everything, one thought of him is enough to make my whole world left behind.

Oh, I wish I could be closer to him, I wish he knows that, and I wish he loves me too... Unfortunately, he just a guy who ignores me a lot. I don't think he knows that I even exist. Sometimes I thought I hate him, but when he turns and do something funny, attractive, mesmerizing ect. ect. I loved him all over again... I love you oh so dearly.

p/s: why so jiwang khaleeda??? think of PMR la bodoh!!!!!!

last but not least, diegon luna!

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i heart you, khaleeda(:

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